Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Someone Got a Good Laugh!!! :)

....and I wish it was ME!

Ha ha ha, oh my!

So, recently I got some new workout DVDs so that I can still get a workout when I wasn't able to go for a walk/run for any reason. I have thought to myself many times, "Oh jeez, what would I do if somebody ever saw me doing my workout?!?!"

....Today was that day!!! HA!....

Picture this; a little cracked open window to a lower level apartment, surely the girl inside thought that nobody would be around to see! Inside there is a chubby little girl with obvious ambition, just dancing her heart out to the cheesiest dance video ever, alone in her living room scattered with toys sweating like a greased pig!!!

All of a sudden I hear girls laughing so hard, but just kept on dancing, wondering what in the world was so funny!

I didn't know whether to feel self conscious about this and go apologize, or just keep up with my routine and any time I see my neighbors, just laugh to myself!! Who the HECK cares!! I don't have anyone to impress besides myself and Heavenly Father!!  So I will just keep it up (and make sure to close my window!!!) and just laugh!!

On that note, I am kinda proud!  I have known for a long time that I really ought to take better care of my body and lose some serious poundage!! I know that Heavenly Father lent me this body trusting me to take care of it, and I really blew it lately and am reaping the consequences!

I found out that I have Fibromyalgia... which basically makes it hard to sleep, and makes me feel like I am sick with bodyaches ALL THE TIME!! Dang, not fun! 

But the good news for me is that i can make it better by exercising and eating better, taking time for myself, and getting good quality sleep. and now i know that it was not all in my head!!

The reason that I am proud is because I REFUSE to allow this to turn me into a vegetable! And I am doing very well! I have been eating 1500 calories a day and working out every single day! Those things truly are helping me feel great!! I know I will have not so good days, but I will for sure get through them!

I truly feel like I am "Defying Gravity" like the song! :) Wish me luck!

5 comments:

Britni and Chad Robertson said...

Now I have a friend to join the Fibro club!! Glad you have a good attitude about it!

Kira And James Morris said...

Nikki! I am so proud of you for working out! Its hard to do ( i try to 3-5 times a week ) but after you feel so good! I am so impressed with your attitude and you have truly inspired me. Thanks for posting. You are a sweet girl, Keep up the good work By the way i Found your blog on Gillians Page. can i add you!?!

syd.chris said...

girl! you are amazing! JUST WHAT I NEEDED TO READ TODAY! seriously so glad to have you as my friend.
I love your attitude towards life. you are truely an incredible example to me! sorry to hear awful news that you have fibro.. so happy to see your reaction! you go girl!!!! and i am laughing at your story haha! love it! keep it up! xoxoxoxxo

Lisa said...

Nikki... you are the cutest ever!!! I love your attitude and positive outlook, you can do this and I truley LOVE to look at your blog so stinking cute
Love ya

Carlie said...

What a great post. You have such an awesome attutude. You are a real big example to me. I mean it. I lost 30 pounds in the last year. I did what your doing. Cut down my calories, and worked out. I started by working out at home and yes, those videos are amazing aren't they!?!?!(which one you doing?) YOU GO GIRL! Thats all I have to say! You can totally do it. You'll start feeling sooo much better. If you ever want to go to the Provo rec and work out with me your more than welcome to. I would love the company. Miss ya and love ya girlie! xoxo YOU CAN DO IT!